The Maui Me of Me

I came here to meet myself, to look within myself in truth and live in honesty and wholeness. I have taken the time to begin deep healing of my soul, learned about Reiki and received my first attunement, which has been a blessing on my path and I feel myself drawn towards helping so many people with the magnificent tool of Reiki! I received a number of messages during my reiki session, mostly in the form of flashes and messages my Reiki Master verbalized, all linked by the theme of loss.

Some of the flashes and emotional ties consisted of the following;

I lost a pregnancy when I was 17 with someone I loved very much and had hoped so much I would be with for many many years, I rarely think about this event and was extremely surprised when it came into my consciousness,

The loss of this lover, best friend, and amazing person also came through, I lost him as a partner, I lost him as a friend.

The loss of the many amazing and moving outdoor experiences in Beautiful Alaska I have had, taken too and experienced because of my father that will never be again,

I was also told that I was still recovering from the birth of my son, which in so many ways, mentally, emotionally and physically all hold truth, truths I rarely look at,

All of these losses hold so many emotional strings and tie me to my past so I am working on each issue individually and allowing these things to live in the past and detaching myself from the weight they bare on my present self.

The Labyrinths at The Sacred Gardens; this is a magical place on the mountainside tucked within the mighty trees of Maui, the atmosphere offers so much serenity! As I walked the first labyrinth the other day, after being drawn to them upon waking, The message I received was to simply allow, everything in life, to allow is to let go of all the anticipation and illusion of control, to allow things to flow in and out of my life, without naming or placing them and instead appreciating them in their simplicity, allowing good to flow freely into my life. The second labyrinth was an overwhelming, abundance of love, of all the Love in the world, in each plant, in each moment, in each person and thought and thing. I was open to the love, I am open to all the love in this beautiful world and i am dedicated to surrounding myself with love in each moment and trying my hardest to hold sight of that when I feel myself falling prey to anger. The mere thought of love brings a smile to my face and peace in my heart, try it, it feels good!

I am here, home, by the ocean, surrounded by aloha allowing my SELF to heal, grow and be filled with love.

I eat to satisfy my bodies nutritional needs with foods that promote clarity, wellness and vibrancy; whatever they may be, I don't need a category, I need to be me, vibrant! I welcome the changes that lye before me.

I am here, in my now, to meet myself as my whole-self, no hiding, learning to be kind to myself,

being me, knowing me, loving me, honouring me and allowing others to be who they are on their own path and recognizing that their issues are not mine.

All of my life has lead to this present reality I am living. I am grateful beyond words for my journey.

Love & Light,

Mariah~Moon

Opening & Moving Forward

The past few days have been 'feeled' with forward healing momentum.... I decided to be completely honest with my parents and finally write them letters. I decided to approach the letters from a stand point of letting them know what I would wish for them, in their personal lives, in their perspective and what I wish they wanted to know about me. All the things I wish they could see in me. I began to make a list and set it down last night, to continue after some more thought...

I am extremely sure of myself, what kind of relationships I want to include in my life and what I am not willing to have as a part of my life. This is the clarity I believe lead to the following recent events.

A few day sago I received a message from my mother saying she loved me and missed me, I was shocked, tears rolled down my face and all I could think of was how much I wish she could take the step to begin healing herself, without change our relationship cannot change; I am not by any means saying it won't, but it must begin somewhere.

Last night I received an email from my sister telling me she was sorry for betraying my trust and how much she desired not only my forgiveness, but also our relationship. And how much she loves me and Travinn.

This morning I received an email from an ex who wanted me to know he doesn't hate me, just so I know.

And the icing on the cake...This evening I opened an email from my father, 1 year without speaking to me, after disowning me and telling me I am no longer his daughter, and all I could read was the first few words that included him telling me he has always loved me and calling me his bald-headed baby. I have yet to find the emotional strength to read the letter, but I am looking forward to it, with nervousness though.

All of these amazing shifts in my life have taken place within such a short time and they feel astounding! As much as these occurrences seem like they would take a huge emotional toll on me, I am actually ready for them, I am open to them and moving forward. I look forward to the continuing of my journey with all of the emotional ties finding resolution through subtle yet huge pieces of communication.

I spent time with a friend today who helped me so much, out of the goodness of his heart and when I hugged him goodbye a wave of gratitude came over me and I am so so thankful for the beautiful people filled with love and light who are coming into my light and all we have to offer one another.

Love & Light to All,

Mariah Moon

The Most Beautiful Sunset...

Tonight I finally had the opportunity to take a half an hour to myself to enjoy a walk on the beach in the sunset. Tonight's sunset was awe inspiring. The world seemed to melt into oneness. The clouds of all different shapes and sizes and colors, illuminated with the beautiful glowing gold light, the sounds of the waves crashing upon the shore, the crabs crawling from their homes in under the sand right at sunset, right on cue, feeling the sand beneath me, between my fingers and toes, a soft breeze against my skin and a smile upon my face while love flooded my heart and body... all of these many things, many emotions and sensations, all melded into oneness...

It seems to me that our human-ness itself is our biggest distraction from our ability to transcend our hang-ups into re-realizing what we truly are, that we are all one, we are all the god-energy, we are all connected and existing as one breath....

A part of the deep love and connectedness I was experiencing tonight reminded me of how amazing it felt at the Raw Spirit festival to be surrounded by so much love and how much I want people full of love to be a constant in my life. It is like an energy-high when you are in groups of amazing loving people; something I want to recreate in my life on a daily basis. So....the reoccurring thought/topic that I keep coming back to is a self-sustainable community of conscious, loving, healthy people living off of the land, not within the 'system.' Whether it be joining an existing community or creating my own I feel that is the direction I am headed.

I moved to Maui with the intention to build a tree-house with natural materials and live off of the land in the most minimal impact way possible..That is a part of my dream....

* I intentionally chose not to take my camera with me to the beach so my memory serves as the only proof the beauty of tonight's sunset...

Love & Light

Breathe & Focus!

From time to time I feel a bit lost, a bit challenged, then I wait, not always so patiently, for the clouds to clear away and for my path to be illuminated. I look around at whats normal, by that I mean mainstream, average, the norms of our society & I have strayed from so many of those, the biggest challenge in straying; sometimes you feel so damn alone & isolated. If I wandered back into the norms of society as well as the norms of my past, I would be denying myself my own truth, and in self-deception, I find no joy, no comfort, no wellness, no love or hope.

So all though sometimes I feel like running away from society and hiding amongst the trees, I stay, I find purpose and I am here to offer help. I have a head full of knowledge, resources, lifestyle experience and I LOVE sharing my wealth. The problem is as human beings we want to help those closest to us, the ones we love and care about the most, yet the ones we are here to help are simply the ones who seek help, which may or may not be the ones we love. Don't get me wrong I have seen the ripple effect that example creates and it is a beautiful thing, I offer myself to the betterment of anyone who seeks, but I can no longer focus energy in directions that lead no where. I seek those who seek change in their lives, I allow these people to be drawn to me and I offer all I have to give.

I am ready to actively offer myself to people who desire the change. To make the effort to be known, to share freely information that has transformed my life. I find purpose in teaching, sharing, loving, caring. These things line my path to be walked in this lifetime, I see them, I accept them and now I move forward with more determination and certainty than I have known before.

My life has changed in fantastic ways, I have released habits, depression, weight, family, material possessions, things that do not serve me; now I fill my life with love, joy, fulfillment, happiness. I have gained immeasurable amounts of truth, honesty and love, the ability to think clearly, to love fully; it is amazing what we can do as humble human beings. Focus inward and truly meet yourself, let the fear subside, you are a beautiful being of light, let your light shine.

I do not need to fit a category of beauty or eat like everyone else or approve of others choices or hope people approve of mine, I live in my truth and pray others see the benefits of wellness, it is not a part of your life, it is your life and with improvement and growth in one area, change begins to spread through your being and you become more whole.

LOVE IS MY RELIGION

My Life is Not Perfect, But it is Awesome....

DAY 4 Juice & Tea Fast

Every time I think I am there, I realize I can go further...

I am feeling such a surge of freedom. I worked so hard to buy a house for my son and I, I accomplished what I set forth to do. It is so easy to become attached to these things we work for, but as life would have it, Seeking love and family put my 'accomplishment' in a place of excess, I no longer need a home to myself if I choose to move forward and seek new adventure. Clinging breeds stagnation. It is time to let go once again, I have let go of so many attachments and beliefs in the past year I feel as if I am constantly being renewed. I am me without the people I called parents, without the people who brought darkness and negativity to my life. Letting go of my beliefs of being alone for a lifetime, that Alaska is my only home, that I can never leave, feeling stuck, feeling alone, all these belief s that didn't serve a higher purpose, I am letting go and moving on, I am allowing happiness to be a part of me. And it feels so fulfilling, I feel like I am floating on a cloud of joy.

I am constantly aware of the conditioning I was raised with, hate and anger were the seeds of love as I grew to adulthood. I met a man when I was 16 who changed my life, he taught me how to love without hate, it was an amazing lesson. It has taken me many many years to apply it fully in my life, for without self love it is hard to accept or return love on an honest level, but I am conscious of it now.

I find myself from time to time slipping into insecurity and relying on the self-defense mechanisms I have used for so many years, my little tool belt of cruelty. I said something to someone I love last weekend that was mean and completely unnecessary, I regret it deeply and I am so thankful for the love and understanding I receive from this person. I spent most of my life a very mean, cruel, hateful, demeaning, violent, controlling, SAD person. I did not know the light even existed.

I now bathe in the light everyday and feel gratitude for every piece of my blessed life. learning to value my past, let go what is no longer needed and how to appreciate all facets of my journey.

My diet is the path that brought me so much healing. I sought the answers, the truth, a way, and I found it. A diet of pure whole foods creates the path to a body and mind of wholeness and clarity.

I am so grateful to be loved deeply as I am. So honoured to be given such a wonderful gift, a partner, a friend, what I have sought for so long, I embrace LOVE , in all~ways...

Raw Chocolate Loves

Chocolate Love

Cacao Powder

Cacao Butter (M)

Coconut Oil (M)

Coconut Butter (M)

Vanilla Bean

Vanilla Extract

Agave

Cinnamon

Sea Salt

(M)= Melted, not boiled!

Add dry ingredients to Melted ingredients, stir, add agave or other sweetener of choice, pour into mold or any flat container, let set in freezer, very melty so serve chilled!

Taste Amazing! 

Where is the Love? Sometimes You Should Say No!

8 Reasons You Should Stop Drinking Milk Now:
By Mickey Z.Astoria, NY, USA Wed Sep 30, 2009 12:00 PM ET

What could be more American than a glass of milk? Cow's milk, that is. In light of this common perception, the time is long overdue to add the milk mustache to that ever-growing list of American myths. Human beings are not designed to drink any milk except human milk (only during infancy, of course). As you'll see below, consuming dairy products—milk, cheese, yogurt, sour cream, ice cream, etc.—is not green and it's not healthy.

It's also a nightmare for the cows themselves. Here's a little of how the folks at GoVeg describe it: "The 9 million cows living on dairy farms in the United States spend most of their lives in large sheds or on feces-caked mud lots, where disease is rampant. Cows raised for their milk are repeatedly impregnated. Their babies are taken away so that humans can drink the milk intended for the calves. When their exhausted bodies can no longer provide enough milk, they are sent to slaughter and ground up for hamburgers."
*Living dairy-free has never been easier...so here's a little motivation to get you on the greener, cruelty-free, not-milk track.

Environmental Reasons to Avoid Milk

1. Dairy cows produce waste.Lots of waste. In fact, your average dairy cow produces 120 pounds of waste every day—equal to that of more than two dozen people, but without toilets, sewers, or treatment plants.

2. Let me repeat: Dairy cows produce lots and lots of waste (and greenhouse gases). California produces one-fifth of the country's total milk supply. According to MilkSucks.com, "in the Central Valley of California, the cows produce as much excrement as a city of 21 million people, and even a smallish farm of 200 cows will produce as much nitrogen as in the sewage from a community of 5,000 to 10,000 people, according to a U.S. Senate report on animal waste."

3. Milk production ultimately leads to climate change. The dairy industry is an extension of the beef industry (used-up dairy cows are sent to the slaughterhouse after an average of four years, one-fifth their normal life expectancy) which means it plays a major role in creating climate change. Here's the equation: The dairy industry uses cows before passing them on to be slaughtered by the beef industry which is now recognized as an environmental nightmare. "According to a UN report," writes Brian Merchant, "cows are leading contributors to climate change ... Accounting for putting out 18% of the world's carbon dioxide, cows emit more greenhouse gases than cars, planes, and all other forms of transportation combined." That means the industry of exploiting all cows—including dairy cows—involves destructive practices like deforestation and polluting offshoots like runoff.

4. Milk often contains unwanted ingredients. Under current industrial methods, cow's milk is often a toxic bovine brew of man-made ingredients like bio-engineered hormones, antibiotics (55% of U.S. antibiotics are fed to livestock), and pesticides—all of which are bad for us and the environment. For example, unintentional pesticide poisonings kill an estimated 355,000 people globally each year. In addition the drugs pumped into livestock often re-visit us in our water supply.

Which brings us to...
Health Reasons to Avoid Milk

5. Cow's milk is for cows. The biochemical make-up of cow's milk is perfectly suitedto turn a 65-pound newborn calf into a 400-pound cow in one year. It contains, for example, three times more protein and seven times more mineral content while human milk has 10 times as much essential fatty acids, three times as much selenium, and half the calcium. Some may like cow's milk but drinking it is both unnecessary and potentially harmful.

6. Milk is actually a poor source for dietary calcium. Humans, like cows, get all the calcium they need from a plant-based diet. 7. Contrary to popular belief, milk may increase the likelihood of osteoporosis. It is still widely accepted that the calcium in dairy products will strengthen our bones and help prevent osteoporosis, but studies show that foods originating from animal sources (like milk) make the blood acidic. When this occurs, the blood leeches calcium from the bones to increase alkalinity. While this works wonders for the pH balance of your blood, it sets your calcium-depleted bones up for osteoporosis. As explained by John Robbins, "The only research that even begins to suggest that the consumption of dairy products might be helpful [in preventing osteoporosis] has been paid for by the National Dairy Council itself."

8. Milk makes you fat. In 2005, the Harvard School of Public Health had this to say on the consumption of dairy products: "Three glasses of low-fat milk add more than 300 calories a day. This is a real issue for the millions of Americans who are trying to control their weight. What's more, millions of Americans are lactose intolerant, and even small amounts of milk or dairy products give them stomach aches, gas, or other problems."
It's easy to go dairy-free. Here are 7 easy vegan recipes to set you off on the right path.
*Editor's Note: If you aren't ready to take the dairy-free plunge, cutting back is a significant step in the greener direction, as is cutting back on meat if not cutting it out entirely.

2009, that was a full year!

Things from 2009:

• Broke someones heart
• Bought My own House
• Disowned by a Parent
• Let go of Someone I was holding onto for no reason
• Had an incredible Energy Healing Session
• Made peace with following my Heart
• Realized my Sister is my all time Best Friend and Favorite Person
• Quit Working
• Became a Temporary Stay at Home Mom
• Became an Aunty
• Opened my Own Business
• Went on a Vacation All Alone
• Went to a huge Raw Festival all Alone
• Reconnected with another one of my favorite persons, Jess!
• Made out with a woman on video which is now on the Internet, that was actually a goal in 2009, fancy that!!!
• Went RAW
• Lost almost 25 lbs, am finally in a healthy weight range
• Started writing 2 books
• Learned to trust someone to love me like I deserve
• Attended the most loving wedding I have ever been to
• Kayaked in the Puget Sound
• Discovered the blatant sorrows of people on the bus system in big cities
• Watched my son turn 4 years old
• Turned 26 years old, surrounded by love
• Saran wrapped a bus drivers seat
• Added permanent hair wraps to my head
• Met Shane
• Lost someone I loved very very much
• Learned to Snowboard, also learned i love it!
• Had my first Thanksgiving without my Parents
• Set up my first Faux Christmas Tree
• Rode a Bike, without asthma issues, in fact, I just don't have asthma anymore, thank you diet of raw foods!
• Made tons of Raw yumminess
• Taught a Raw Foods workshop
• Learned first hand how naughty emails end up somewhere they aren't supposed to
• Discovered my Chaga love, now I see it EVERYWHERE
• Went swimming in freezing ass water just to see if a boy would too
• Made an Awesome new Friend who's son is now Travinn's Awesome new friend too!
• Marveled as my son learned to spell
• Found out where to pick the big berries in Hatchers
• Got a free tattoo
• Went out as a DD for a friend I never thought would drink, haha!
• Dressed like a viking
• Met a Man I Love in the most Perfect and Genuine Way
• WAS GRATEFUL EVERY SINGLE DAY FOR THE AMAZING LIFE I LIVE!

Some In'ten'tions for 20'10'

1. Use all the food I bring into the house

2. Organize my space

3. Pay all bills on time

4. Allow more Love in my life than I ever knew possible

5. Be successful in everything I do

6. Complete my B.S. in Natural Health

7. Finish and Publish both books

8. Do all things in harmony with my true self

9. Release Fear

10. Continue my RAW journey, discovering myself, helping others, inspiring people to help themselves