A Toast with Travinn to Change!!

I feel like all the love around me swept me in this direction of manifesting. I litterally allowed myself to believe in something and tonight I sat there and watched it materialize in front of me, my spirit is like 'whoah' right now.

My life is incredible, the things I want are coming to me in amazing ways, my son is gettinig more of my time, I am about to embark on my small business venture, I have the tools and support I need, I have a boyfriend who quite frankly is turning into one of the best friends I could ask for, I am so me with him it really can't be put into words; I appreciate him, so, so very much and I am glad he stepped into my life to support me in this journey.

Life is good baby, my house, my family, my love, my self, my everything is right where it should be and it's oozing joy!!!!

My To Do List

I've got the whole world, in my hands....

My Future

1. Finish BS in Natural Health

2. Finish writing Books

3. Publish Books

4. 10 Day Fast on Spring Water and Green Juices after Work is Over

5. Daily Affirmations

6. Teach a Class on Natural Health Every Week

7. Hold Monthly Raw Potlucks

8. Do Foot Spa Treatments

9. Open 'Mariah~Moon Wellness Center'

10. Finish MS in Natural Health

11. Certified Herbal Consultant

12. Teach Chakra Balancing/ Guided Imagery

13. Learn to do Herbal Body Wraps

14. Sale ArtWork

15. Buy property at Lake Louise for My Family

16. Erase someones Monetary Debt Completely (a gift I want to give, don't know who yet)

17. Build a Living Space for Conscious Folks to live as a community

Post Energy Healing Session Thoughts

So this session and self healing work happens to coincide with a new and blossoming friendship with a man who is unlike any I have met before, so in light of that their is some extra thought put into relationships and what I deserve from one and what I am willing to give, so this entry may not make much sense, but in the end it is a means to a conclusion...

I want honest communication, genuine connection and I am ready for something in my life that is significant and magnificent and I am unwilling to settle for anything less.

I enjoy holding hands, feeling adored, being understood, loved, desired and knowing that I make the one I choose to be with just as equally happy.

I know that in the past I have attracted broken people because of my tendency to heal/help and because of that I am setting limitations, I choose to attract people that give and receive, not take.

I am a new person from the one I was before, no one has ever been loved by the person I am today and in that realization I see the great potential in my gift of love and although I give it freely, I also give it wisely.

I am conscious, available and ready for the joy life is bestowing upon me.

I choose to be with someone that understands I have lived a life before them and passes no judgement on me for this, that they are accepting, loving and understanding, that we meet in a place of true sincerity and acceptance in all ways.

I surround myself in a community of love and support. The people I know and meet enhance my life in positive ways. I know love on a deeper level than I have ever known before. I love my friends, my family and my enemy, for I know we are all one. I make time for all of my loved ones to ensure they know my love.

I forgive my mother for the way she loved me and I release all anger towards her. I am grateful for the pain I have felt and the hardships I have endured. I forgive 'him' for choosing to not be a husband or a father and I understand that he did not use me, he could only take what I gave. I release my anger towards Robert and choose to release him from my thoughts.

To ignore something is refusal to grow. I choose to look upon all aspects and issues in my life with certainty that acceptance and understanding lead to healing.

I live in Abundance

Sexuality vs. Spirit

My blog is my outlet for pure honesty and self disclosure: you may learn things you don't want to know about me.

I come from an ever evolving sexual definition. I began as a silly girl in love, making love, turned into a girl who had sex to fill the holes in her heart, became monogamous and loved, fell in love with sex, had sex with people to hurt someone I loved at one time, a bout of celibacy, back to monogamy, more celibacy, monogamous sexual relationship with someone I didn't love or want in my life, back to a tinny bout of celibacy, and have decided that the emptiness I get after sex for the last year or so isn't worth having sex.

I am left with an emptiness only emotions can fill. Having sex without a mental, emotional or spiritual connection is draining to me, I can't find any value in the short minutes/ hours (all depends) of physical enjoyment. I am no longer a single thought being of simple sexuality. I need more.

I stand at a choice, I am not sure I even want to delve into a sexual 'event' without a strong sense of connectedness. On the other hand I have found sex that fulfills me, leaves me with no emptiness because a connection was established on other levels before the physical was explored. And upon exploring I discovered the feelings of being sincerely desired for who I am, not just a physical body and peace in my mind body and soul, when my actions are in alignment with my deeper self I evolve into personal harmony, a sense of fulfillment, knowing I am seen for more than just one facet of my self, I feel whole when I give and receive whole. A sense of true satisfaction.

When I have a purely sexual encounter with someone I give them a piece of my time, a bit of my mind and a part of my physical self, but when I am with someone who I feel an emotional bond to, I give them a piece of all of the above and a piece of my spirit. And I need to function on a spiritual level to maintain my wholeness.

So I wonder out loud, what draws me to purely sexual 'events' in my life when in the long run they don't fulfill me, is it habit or something more? I will act in a manner that appeases my sense of self and disharmony will just have to be my guide.

In Love

I am in love, I am overjoyed, I am me.

There was a time not long ago when I stood in front of the mirror and all I could see was my face, I would purposely tune out the rest of my body because I loathed how I looked. With exercise, a raw foods diet and allowing the love I have for others to be reflected back to me, I finally love myself. I can look at my whole self in the mirror. I may not be perfect, but I love me for where and who I am right now in this moment, which is perfection to me.

I love my physical self, my emotional self, my spritual and mental self. I am committing to the goals I have set forth to accomplish and I am believing in my own success, allowinig the process.

I am manifesting the reality I choose to live in and it allows me endless amounts of self love. My life is a continual shifting from one vibration to the next and I climb higher and higher with each passing day. I am learning to allow love in my life in all shapes and forms it may be delivered. I am more open to possibility right now than I ever have been. Loving myself draws others towards me and I hope to share my light with as many as possible, but beware those of you looking to take, I do not plan on losing any of my light.

May our light grow and multiply together as beings of love... May self love be in the hearts of all those who cross my path...

Good Vibrations

I love life and above are some photos of the simple things that make my life so wonderful, the silliness, the silence, the sun, my son, our beautiful earth, moments with the ones we love the most, the colors that dance across my eyes when they fall upon the tundra...

I'm vibrating on high lately! Just thinking about the world and how we are all connected and vibrating in the same ball of energy, thinking about how each individuals energy is added to the others to create the overall energy. And how my choices in life contribute. Kirtan is powerful, I can only imagine if the whole world was filled with people loving life and being happy, the world would know no sorrow, we would exist in harmony!

Which leads me to my first reason for this post: DEAD THINGS

Life, Death and Consumption are a cycle. The dirt eats the dead plants and dead animals, Animals eat the dead plants, people eat the dead plants and animals, we all eat each other and putting a veggie in your mouth is still a dead/ dying food. In order to eat meat and plants, we as humans cut them off from their life source and consume them to give us life energy. This is a perfect balance. A few exceptions such as sprouts etc. i don't think meat is a good choice for humans to eat, but its not the killing/ dead part that bothers me. i really don't have a problem with people eating game and fish, that is their choice and i think hunting and fishing can be compared to gardening, working with the food you feel a connection that isn't there in a grocery store.

And on to commercially raised animals and animal by-products. I think this has HUGE impact in the energy of our world, mass amounts of animals being denied a natural environment, injected with hormones and antibiotics, overcrowded, their offspring taken from them, denied personal space, mutilated, beaten, deformed, murdered, and why? Their is no balance in it, no respect, complete disconnect and lack of thought, none of those things contribute any positive energy to the universe, suffering is not a good thing. The health problems associated with the consumption of animal proteins and dairy are overwhelming, its astonishing that we live in such a blind society. We feed food to the animals that could feed the people of their world. i pray people open their eyes and choose not to be a part of such negativity. Animals, like humans deserve life without such sorrow. And be it most people believe humans are somehow above animals, we all live, all things are living and I believe there is a balance in respecting one another, one that is not a part of commercial big industry farming. The sadness of these animals contributes to the sadness of the world, they are vibrating too. We could change the world if we stopped being a part of such a negative activity. Being a part of the problem doesn't allow for internal healing, to be conscious means in every aspect and it is a deep road to delve into, but the benefits are amazing, its like heaven on earth. Not eating commercially raised animals is a simple and extremely powerful contribution to the world. Be the Change.

And on to me, my choice to be whole and happy. I consciously choose to no longer maintain relationships with people who want to hurt me, physically, mentally or emotionally. To allow abuse in my life is to be abusive towards myself, I realize this now, took a bit of violence to see it clearly, but I am there now and I release all pain associated with abusers. I know what I deserve and in order to maintain my own harmony, I release me ties to those of you who have tried to pull me down, tried to break me, I am deserving of so much more. I am choosing to attract people full of life and love. I have no need for drama, I have my family, my home, my friends and my life that I create. I have a heart full of enough love to fill this whole world and I want to share. I attract opportunity and love life, this is my gift to the world, through my diet choices, mood choices, attitude choices and overall lifestyle choices, my choice to care, not selfishly, but genuinely care about all the life energy I am connected to... This is my gift to the universe, myself and you.

The more simple we live, the less chemicals and pollutants we put in our bodies, the easier it is to be whole, appreciative and truly find ourselves.

To heal the self, to facilitate healing in others, to be a vessel of healing, we must cleanse our thoughts, emotions, actions, physical bodies and minds of negativity. Cherish the simple beauty of nature, the love from a child, the passion in people dreaming, the lessons we have learned, so much beauty in front of you, choose to see. Consider the kind of energy you feed your body mind and soul. Be the Change

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Harvey's Song

...such a sad sad thing i set you free, cuz i can't get you back,

so tired of dreaming of you so many a night,

dreaming you see me for the me i have become, for the changes i have made and the someone i now am,

i seek to hold your hand,

for you to call me friend,

to see you be loved by those who would hold you,

if only you could understand,

i want to speak, for you to hear me,

i wish to wipe your tears that you hide so well,

i see the lost and it pains me to be powerless,

do not be afraid,

the truth will bandage your fears,

tears can be shed for light lingers near,

in truth there is freedom,

a luxury for few,

to ground yourself once again,

my hand is outstretched and this arm is getting tired,

time to rest it upon acceptance until you hear me loud and clear,

wipe away the cob webs for i am still standing here,

outstretched it remains,

a friendship so dear,

that i will wait forever even if you never appear,

for i miss the light you bring and the blue skys that you sing,

..its such a sad sad thing i set you free, cuz i can't get you back...

In meeting a new friend I was asked if I had ever been in love, I said yes, once, I have loved a few, but 'In Love,' once, but I was too young to know how to grow together, to communicate and support one another, So yes, I have been truly loved, in love and it was magical, once, but I set him free of me, cuz I didn't know how to grow together instead of apart